Tuesday, July 12, 2011

So, I'm new to blogging.

Online that is.. I guess you (I) could say that I have been blogging in my own mind for years. It's crazy to think how much thoughts actually run through ones head in a single day. Anyway, I finally convinced myself to create an online blog. (Yes I talk to myself lol). So I haven't been smoking Marijuana lately, its been about 13 days now. And yes I capitalized Marijuana on purpose! Don't just me monkeys lol. Back to the topic at hand.. I haven't smoked for 13 days, not by choice, but because of probation. I've been on probation for about about 3 years now (3 years probation was part of my deal) due to a Marijuana related arrest. So since my sentence I've only heard from these fuckers twice. I'm not complaining, I'm just saying. The first was to let me know that I was going to be enrolled into a drug program. The second was recently (June 29th) to let me know I have a routine appointment. Now to me, a routing appointment means that these assholes (I will refer to the probation department as "these assholes" lol) are about to release me from probation (hopefully). Of course I'm expecting to get the old "Do you mind giving us a urine sample?" bullshit before I leave the building, hence the whole me not smoking situation. Keep in mind I am a legal prop 215 patient now. My friends tell me that I should tell these assholes to go fuck themselves and keep on smoking like a train. Don't get me wrong, that would be my first choice 9 times out of 10. But for this certain situation I felt it was better to just clean my system and pass the UA (urine analysis). I think it will give me a big smile when I am able to pass the test and not give these assholes anything to hold over my head. The probation department around here has no interest what so ever to hear about me being a legal patient. Picture these assholes giving me the "I'm listening but I don't give a fuck what you have to say" nod. I just want to get this whole situation behind me. If I have to quit smoking for a whole fucking month to do it, SO BE IT! Most of my friends are shocked when I tell them the oldest line in the pothead book- "I can quit whenever I want.". Most of the time I just get laughed at (with a handful of mild insults), but that's expected. When I was enrolled into the drug program at the beginning of my sentence, I pretty much had to quit for a whole year. In the program, I met a lot of interesting people (mostly drug addicts lol). But I actually came across a couple real drug addicts. When I say real drug addicts, I mean people addicted to: meth, crack, cocaine, etc.. Real drugs! lol. It's crazy when you realize all the different paths people take and somehow still end up in the same place. Anyway, I graduated from the program with flying colors; I never gave one dirty UA. In that program I felt like an eagle among a group of turkeys, as the saying goes. And before you jump to conclusions, no I do not think I am better than anybody. The level of education in that place was below average, which makes sense because most of those people are whacked out of their minds. Even some of the counselors seemed to be unqualified to tell other people what direction they should go in their lives. But that's neither here nor there now. I graduated the program in 2009, I think? I can't really remember because as soon as I graduated I got so baked I forgot who I was haha. Irony at it's best is it not? Even though I am bashing the program, it did help me grow as a person. I picked up a few life lessons along the way, as I do with most things I am involved in. Just for those few lessons alone, I feel it was worth giving up Marijuana for a whole year. See, I love Marijuana more than most people. So much so that I am actually able to consciously give it up for a set amount of time. I never say goodbye to Maryjane, its always more like a "See you later!". At this point in time, I believe Marijuana will always be involved in my life. And that thought doesn't bother me one bit (the exact opposite for my mother lol). I've been smoking Marijuana since I was 14 (maybe 13 1/2?). I still remember the day vividly.. But that is better left for another day. To be continued homies ;)

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